When we come to India, having invested so much energy and
expense, it’s easy to fall into our capitalist habits and expectations. That
is, we want to Get Our Money’s Worth.
A spiritual practice with powerful physical effects, yoga
has become commercially attractive. It’s cheaper and often more effective than
physical therapy, chiropractics, or conventional medicine. It’s more thorough
and enjoyable than a workout at the gym. Because many people and some medical
insurance plans are willing to spend money on yoga, yoga teachers have the
potential to make a living teaching and running centers. As a result, we have
taken a spiritual path and imbued it with material expectations.
Not to begrudge our material needs. We all need a roof over
our heads and a warm room, nourishment, and even better, community, education,
and enrichment. However, we may be disserving yoga, or even abusing the art of
practice, by expecting it to meet middle class standards of living. It may be
that the application of yoga to our economic sphere leads to a corruption of
the practice and a compromise of our soul needs. Not only that, but the
relationship with our teacher can become compromised and problematic.
In the Iyengar Yoga world, we respectfully and affectionately
refer to BKS Iyengar as “Guruji,” and bestow this same depth of respect to his
children, Geetaji and Prashantji. A guru is a spiritual teacher, one who
teaches you the art of living an integrated life on earth. “Guru” refers to the
interplay between light and dark, as the guru dispels the darkness of
ignorance, implying that this teacher shows us both the positive and the
negative.
We see this most boldly in the teachings of Geetaji. Her
standards are high and her temper is notorious, and along with her brilliant
lessons, she sometimes berates her students ruthlessly. She brings out the most
difficult lessons about ourselves in her classes. We can react by becoming
defensive, or ignoring her feelings, or shutting ourselves down and running away,
or becoming angry in return that she is wasting our time and being abusive.
But if we see Geeta as our guru, an extension of the role of
BKS Iyengar, we shed our egos, allow our tamasic nature—which keeps us stuck in
our old ways—to be broken down, release the urge to be defensive, and accept
all that she gives us as necessary to our spiritual growth.
This is completely different from a commercial,
consumeristic relationship, and is one reason I typically avoid giving private
lessons. When someone pays my hourly rate as they would another highly trained
professional or therapist, they often have an expectation that they will be
served. Often they will seek out a private teacher as a substitute for
practicing yoga on their own. They expect me to come up with the sequence, do
all the set-ups, and run them through it. In this way, they become my client
instead of a student. For this reason, I typically give private lessons only to
students working on specific issues outside the scope of general classes who
already are, or are committed to, beginning practice on their own. Even so, I
usually limit the sessions to only one, with perhaps a follow-up.
Geetaji gets frustrated when she sees international students
coming to RIMYI to be served, to be told what to do, to show off what they
already know, and to have their egos reinforced. She wants us to take
responsibility for our own learning, to not wait for her to repeat every last
instruction, to meet her where she is instead of expecting her to meet us where
we are, We need to come to RIMYI as sisyas—spiritual devotees, not as clients
trying to get a good business deal, and not as yoga tourists.
Increasingly, I see my path as that of a yoga sadhu, a
pilgrim. I have packed up my life into a stack of boxes occupying a corner of
the living room in the yoga housing co-op I am moving out of. What I cannot fit
into that corner will stay behind, at least for now. I am experimenting with
how much I can give up, in order to more fully embody the yoga path.
I feel my particular task in the world of Iyengar Yoga is to
bring the art and practice to populations who have not traditionally been given
access, and offer Iyengar Yoga as a sacred art. As I journey to Detroit to join
the “Urban Healing Revolution” in progress there, I wish to restore sacredness
to the practice of Iyengar Yoga by teaching on a gift basis.
Let’s face it, the teachings from the Iyengars are
priceless. We cannot put a dollar amount on it. By removing the teachings from
the commercial realm, I hope to reinforce this art in the realm of the
spiritual. I ask my community to support the Iyengars, their teachings, and my
role as their student, by giving what they can to support me as a teacher.
Their gifts, whether cash, time exchange, or barter of goods, will allow me to
continue my study, meet my physical needs, and “pay for” the next student to
receive the benefits they have received.
Let us open our hearts, minds, and bodies to the sacred gift
of the teachings of the Iyengars. May we especially accept difficult lessons
with grace and gratitude. May we as students support our local teachers in
keeping the gift of the teachings circulating. May we teachers trust our
communities to support us as we share the priceless lessons we have had the
grace of receiving, for the benefit of our communities.
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