Thursday, May 14, 2015

Got a Minute? Do a pose! Ardha Uttanasana (Half forward bend)

Each week I will be posting a beginning Iyengar Yoga pose that will take only a minute of your day. Check in each week and become enlightened in no time!

Thursday, April 16, 2015


I send out tentative shoots
that are doomed to fail
like the cherry tree we planted last spring
mowed down by fall

I say it wrong
wear it crooked
glasses askew
old and farty

at least a decade behind every trend
I embarrass myself
before youngsters half my age

I don’t tweet
or snapchat
or whatever the fuck is the latest app

I am more than halfway
through this fragile burst of a life
not even middle aged
but hurtling headlong to elderhood

at an age when I should be securing my nest egg
tenured and well-insured
at the top of my game

I rub it all out and start from scratch
I save nothing and press restart
I slash and burn
and cut down the safety net
spiral closer to the sun
to get burned each time

the moment of mastery
is the call to deconstruct
comfort is the signal
to stretch for the growth edge

I fly to the other side of the world
to sleep on the floor
in another language
I find ever new ways
to mortify myself

I move myself to detroit
to breathe incinerated air
and wake to watchdogs barking on cold nights

I move my ass every 6 months or so
each time shedding another layer of accumulation
who knew it would all be so useless?
all that learning?
all those books?

what are you trying to prove?
says my incredulous ex
what drives you
toward extreme vulnerability?
ask same-age friends
from the safety of their long-time homes

so many incarnations in this single lifetime
I quake and glow in the glory of my foolishness

Friday, February 6, 2015

Yoga Tradition and Lulu-ji

Originally published at The Periphery, Feb 2015


Can commercialized yoga be respectful to the Indian traditional practice?

//gwi-seok (peggy) hong

© 2015 Ava Decapri, "Untitled"
© 2015 Ava Decapri"Untitled"
Geeta Iyengar stands on the stage at the Iyengar Institute in Pune, India. “You people,” she wags her long finger as her piercing eyes sweep the room. The 150+ students are both local students and practitioners from around the world, but we all know she is addressing the “Westerners.” “You people come here and you just want to take from us. You do not respect yoga. You do not respect Guruji. You come to get your next certification, or to get your ‘points.’ Then you go back and teach a workshop and charge money for something you got from us.”
We are hushed and docile and sheepish. It’s true, our students are eagerly awaiting our return to our native countries to get a taste of the Pune experience through us. We’re here primarily for our own growth as yoga practitioners, but also as representatives of communities from nearly every corner of the globe. Geeta Iyengar understands this all too well. Most of us are full-time yoga teachers, committed to the yoga path, staying in Pune for one to two months at a time, and coming to study every year or two. To study at the Iyengar Institute, we have to have a minimum of eight years Iyengar Yoga study under our belts and the recommendation of a senior teacher. But to be this dedicated means our livelihoods depend on yoga as a commercially viable product or service.
Geeta Iyengar’s father, BKS Iyengar, the premier yoga master of our era and largely responsible for globalizing yoga, recently passed away at age 95. A yoga practitioner struggling to support his family teaching an art that Indians themselves, due to generations of colonization, held in low esteem, came into the international spotlight through famed American-born violinist Yehudi Menuhin, who introduced him to the upper crust of Europe in 1952.
Through the attention he garnered from white people as an exoticized wonder, he was able to earn a living to support his family, gain international, and eventually national fame, and, in the 1970s, build an Institute which attracts Iyengar Yoga students from around the world. Geetaji understands this all too well, and although I’ve never heard her directly address this dilemma, I believe it informs her ambiguous relationship with the international students. On the one hand, she realizes the health and dynamism of the Iyengar Yoga movement requires international participation, and on the other hand, she’s troubled at how commercial yoga has become, how far it has strayed from its roots, and how greedy and bloated the egos of many practitioners has become.
Note that only after foreign recognition did Shri BKS Iyengar earn legitimacy in his home country. Tragically, this is how global white supremacy and cultural imperialism persists. In an interesting twist, only after yoga became a multi-billion dollar industry did the debate regarding cultural appropriation become mainstream, to the point thatthe Indian government is actively promoting yoga as a Hindu spiritual practice.
Indian Prime Minister Narendra Modi comes from the Hindu right-wing Bharatiya Janata Party (BJP), which has been described as “Hindu fascists.” Author and human rights activist Arundhati Roy provides background on the party and the 2002 pogrom of which Modi presumably played a central role. Of late, the BJP has actively rebranded itself as a nationalist party for all Indians, regardless of caste, creed, or religion. How this will bear out remains to be seen. Meanwhile, the government is wielding yoga as a cultural capital weapon, with popular appeal. I say, watch out.
Is yoga indeed a Hindu practice? While BKS Iyengar and his family are Hindu, his Indian students at his Institute include numerous Parsi, Muslim, and Christian Indians. His international students range from agnostic to Buddhist, Christian, Jewish, and more. BKS Iyengar from the beginning has presented yoga as a spiritual practice suitable for all religions.
Although some Hindu practitioners may disagree, many books and articles describe yoga as a set of practices parallel to, but separate from, specific faiths. Classical texts like Patanjali’s Yoga Sutras are part of the Buddhist canon as well as studied by yogis. Also, many scholars describe the modern day asana (yoga postures) practice as a conglomeration of various traditions ranging from gymnastics to martial arts to dance, only about 100 years old, rather than thousands. Look at the work of Mark Singleton and Wendy Doniger, for instance. And I cannot fail to mention one of my favorite apocryphal takes, Jesus Lived in India, which argues that Jesus himself learned yoga, tying together Christianity, Buddhism, and yoga practice. Makes sense to me.
To me, admitting that what I practice and teach differs from the tradition of the Himalayan sadhus (pilgrims) 5,000 years ago does not diminish the practice. I see it as an art form meant to evolve with the times. BKS Iyengar’s yoga exemplifies this progressive dynamism. He was taught as a teenager by his guru, Tirumalai Krishnamacharya, the vigorous vinyasa style (poses linked by the breath) that we refer to nowadays as “Ashtanga Yoga,” espoused by Shri Pattabhi Jois, also a student of Krishnamacharya and his followers.
Young BKS Iyengar, assigned to teach in Pune and separated from his teacher, spent up to ten hours each day practicing on his own, and his own style began to emerge. He saw that most of his students could not perform the classical asanas as he had been taught. He put himself into the bodies of his students to figure out how to help them and began developing the hallmark precision and astute instructions and adjustments of the Iyengar method. He began improvising “props” to assist them, taking bricks from the street and such.
Naturally, what Iyengar developed was quite different from what he was taught as a teenager, and his practice continued to evolve. His eldest daughter, Geetaji, also an ayurvedic physician, developed and adjusted the practice to suit the varying needs of women, through menstruation, pregnancy, postpartum, and menopause. Both Guruji and Geetaji developed a sophisticated approach and customized sequences for people with illnesses and injuries, so that patients from all over the world come seeking healing.
To further complicate the definition of yoga, Guruji’s son, Prashantji, teaches a different stream altogether, which departs from the detailed instructions of his father and sister. Prashantji’s approach includes lengthy discourses on the esoteric nature of yoga, commentary on yoga scriptures, all infused with poetic wordplay and humor. The asana classes could consist of four or five asanas only, while Prashantji exhorts us to examine the asana from inside-out rather than outside-in, from the perspective of the breath, or the organs, or the mind, or any number of facets. He refuses to tell us what to do, relentlessly dismantling what we think “Iyengar Yoga” should be, disrupting the tradition set by his father and sister. Still, this is all under the broad umbrella of Iyengar Yoga.
This is why, to an Iyengar yoga practitioner, the description of yoga as a Hindu practice feels awkward. One visit to a medical class at the Iyengar Institute, or to Geetaji’s women’s class, or to Prashantji’s class would leave a student seeking a pure Hindu religious experience, baffled.
Furthermore, if we declare and protect yoga as a Hindu practice, we are also supporting yoga as a practice of the Brahmin caste. As in the USA, yoga in India tends to be in the domain of the upper class. Traditionally, only the upper castes enjoyed access to the arts. These days, progressive Indians say the castes no longer apply. However, they admit that they operate under a de facto, unspoken but understood code. Lower castes and classes, which include Muslims and Christians, would traditionally not have access to a practice like yoga. Is this what Narendra Modi intends?
In the USA, radicals and progressives concerned about the cultural appropriation of yoga may be unwittingly playing into the hands of the Hindu right-wing by giving them sovereignty over the practice. Even the radical SAAPYA (Southeast Asian American Perspectives on Yoga in America) got caught in the crosshairs, gettingmistakenly lumped with the Hindutva (right-wing Hindu) movement.
I think the issue is not so much about “giving back yoga” to Hindus, as it is about Americans and others profiteering, oversimplifying, exoticizing, sexualizing, ego-building and empire-building their own take on the practice of yoga. I have some radical friends and acquaintances who have relinquished the practice of yoga in order not to be culturally appropriating it. This may be the right thing for some. But instead, can we transform the practice of yoga in America to be more respectfully aligned with Indian roots and far less about profit?
It’s the damn bindis and commercialization, y’all, not the teachings themselves, that we have to give up. Geeta Iyengar is not asking us to stop practicing yoga. It’s the fashions, the methods named after ourselves, and the arrogant assumptions of privilege that are problematic. I would also add that the exclusiveness of yoga to certain people in the USA — cisgendered, white, thin, and upper class — corrupt the deeper meaning of the practice.
Though many may disagree, I do not think yoga teachers should be accruing wealth. I regard my work as my spiritual calling, my ministry, so to speak, and as such, I feel I must not attach an expectation of profit from it. If it provides me with a modest livelihood, I am grateful. If not, I need to either reduce my living expenses or earn supplemental income. I have managed by adopting a lifestyle of voluntary simplicity and maximizing community connections. For me, pursuing wealth would mean leaving my beloved city of Detroit to teach upper class people in the suburbs.
© 2015 Will Buhler, "Untitled"
© 2015 Will Buhler"Untitled"
I am also a Vipassana meditator, but I’ve never heard Vipassana, with Indian Buddhist roots, taught by the Burmese Indian, SN Goenka, debated in the context of cultural appropriation. While yoga is hotly debated, to the extent that practitioners are forsaking it, meditation is rarely brought up. Why?
It comes down to money. There’s no money in Vipassana meditation. All centers are run on donations and all teachers are volunteers. No one is trademarking a particular style of meditation, no one is building a meditation empire, no one is propagating a meditation teacher training, no one is trying to “take back” meditation, and no one is selling sexy meditation clothing. In a global capitalist society, value is largely determined by commercial worth.
“Take Back Yoga” didn’t emerge until yoga as a multimillion dollar industry emerged. With big money comes sex. It’s ironic that the Iyengars developed “yoga bloomers” to provide modest and functional attire but really what folks want is that “Lulu-ji” shit, see-through, sexy, and all, because there’s no way to immerse oneself in an ancient practice of liberation quite like shopping for expensive clothes.
In contrast, what we get in India, as far as amenities, are thin, worn mats packed wall to wall, with no air conditioning, no changing rooms, long bathroom lines for two women’s toilets, in exchange for the most stellar and profound instruction in the world. In America, it’s just the reverse. We get beautiful temperature-controlled studios, sophisticated sound systems, well-appointed boutiques, and next to no instruction from a teacher with a generic certification. Which leads me to my real pet peeve: the proliferation of yoga teacher trainings.
Yoga became a multi-billion dollar industry when every Tom, Dick, and Harry started their own teacher training program. For a few thousand dollars and a weekend-a-month, you can start from zero and earn your certification in a year.
Afterwards, if you have the gall and a decent credit score, you can open your own studio, invite all your friends, and teach whatever the hell you want. You can charge 20, 30 bucks a class or more, cater to upper middle class suburban women who want a “yoga butt,” and have the time and money to come two, three, four times a week to bliss out to your yoga soundtracks, morning sun salutes, and evening slow flow or candlelight or whatever else you invent or copy. As a beginner teacher, you don’t have a lot to teach them, but you provide a beautiful, affirming atmosphere, and you recycle a handful of aphorisms that make people feel good: “Open your heart to the wisdom of your body,” or “Inhale peace, exhale love.”
As your classes grow, you can hire more 200-hour teachers. They’re churned out in droves each year, and you can pay them next to nothing. They have day jobs or spouses to support them. Years pass and yoga becomes mainstream. Your boutique is booming, and before you know it, you’re offering your own teacher training. You give it a nice Sanskrit name, something easy to pronounce but exotic-sounding. And so it goes.
I’m with the right-wing Modi Hindus on this one. Not only is this unsafe and irresponsible, but it demeans and disrespects the profound practice of yoga. It flattens a complex realm of teachings for the purpose of commercial profit. It shrinks a holistic spiritual practice to a new age fitness routine. American-style yoga feels like cultural appropriation because people extract the parts of it that are marketable and treat the cultural roots like an easily discarded costume.
It used to be, and still is in the Iyengar Yoga tradition, that if you wanted to teach yoga, you had to win the confidence of your teacher and have them take you under their wing as an apprentice, one of only a few at a time. You had to put in years of practice before you could start apprenticing. The apprenticeship would include every aspect of the practice from reading philosophy to learning the nuts and bolts of every pose, observation and correction, modifications and adjustments, and sequencing. In a years-long relationship with your mentor, you would learn how yoga philosophy manifested in their day-to-day lives and be able to engage in conversation. Through your teacher you had a direct connection to the roots of the practice in India, and with time, you would also go to India to study. From your mentor you would receive lots of direct feedback (sometimes more than you wanted) to help you improve. In other words, you had to pay your dues, and for years, not months.
Apprenticeship in the Iyengar method would begin by observing classes, then eventually assisting, then after in-depth study, supervised teaching. After at least two or three years of study under your mentor, in addition to the recommendation of a second intermediate or senior level teacher, you might be ready to take the weekend-long test to begin the process of certification in the Iyengar method, and if you passed, then take the second part of the test the following year to finally become certified. Higher levels of certification take even more years, so that one remains always a student, and every teacher, no matter how experienced, is also being mentored by more than one teacher. Such is the wisdom of the guru model. One always has teachers above them, and one must always be humble.
I started teaching in 2001, after studying for five years, then became a Certified Iyengar Yoga Instructor in 2004 after easily exceeding 1000 hours of training, which included direct classroom instruction, weekend workshops eight to ten times each year, supervised teaching, reading and writing assignments, and discussions and consultations. After I received Introductory level certification, I went on to Intermediate Junior I, II, and III certifications, each requiring two to four additional years of study and testing, with no guarantee of passing. If I choose to continue on the certification path, there are still nine levels above me.
Because of the years of rigorous training, Iyengar Yoga teachers may have more in common with professional healers like physical therapists, acupuncturists, and naturopaths, than the run-of-the-mill American yoga teacher who writes a check, shows up for training, and receives a diploma after a year or less. Iyengar training ensures that teachers have a thorough understanding of the holistic practice of yoga, which ranges from observations of social and personal ethics (yamas and niyamas) to understanding the deeper practices of concentration and meditation (dharana, dhyana), in addition to thorough knowledge of asana and pranayama (postures and breathwork).
Of course the high standards pose another issue — who has access to the teachings? Who has the time and resources for this depth of study and commitment? Personally I have committed myself to make Iyengar Yoga classes and apprenticeship opportunities available to all. But white supremacy and capitalism permeate society on so many levels, ranging from (lack of) exposure to basic information to cultural expectations to body image, presenting obstacles to making Iyengar Yoga truly accessible.
I’m proud to point out that our own Iyengar Yoga Detroit is run by two Certified Iyengar instructors who are women of color, perhaps the only such center in the nation. Our student body enjoys much more racial diversity than most yoga studios. Still, we have far to go to truly reflect our community.
Let’s take Geeta Iyengar’s criticisms to heart. If yoga is to be a practice of liberation, we all need to take responsibility by giving credit instead of hoarding it. Let’s honor the lineage of yoga by respecting our teachers and the roots in India. Let’s take it upon ourselves to embody and embrace the whole path of yoga as a lifestyle, not just do flashy asanas. Let’s give ourselves years, decades, to study, and prioritize our studentship over our teachership.
May we honor our teachers. May we dismantle systems of oppression and exploitation rather than reinforce them. May we heal ourselves in order to heal our communities. Namaste.

Friday, January 2, 2015

sneeze. han-gang. christmas day.

what would I give to cross the han once more
in a half empty bus on christmas day
yeoido bridge
over december currents resisting freeze

can I hear once more
the polite recorded voice
calling out the bus stops
until I memorize the route

can I stand at the back door again
swaying with the traffic flow
as my weight shifts through the small bones of my feet

let me walk home one more time
leaning backward as I walk downhill
while children tip forward on the balls of their feet
to run past me

let me step stocking feet onto warmed floor
sit with rice and soup and barley tea

this land where I was born
this land which I left
may I return with the imaginary ashes
of my long-buried mother

set an ancestral table and burn incense
to send her spirit down han-gang
and up to mountainside pines

may I see her face once more
the mother who abandoned me
the mother I return to
in the embrace of the vinyl bus seat

on christmas day

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Christmas 2014

My year began in an underheated house several of us had taken on as a major renovation project—a beautiful, sprawling, turn of the century multi-family building. We awoke in rooms where our breath visibly hung in the air, and we reluctantly hauled ourselves out from under our 3-4 blankets and hot water bottles. Somehow we made it through the record-breaking cold of Detroit winter, despite the physical, mental and emotional toll.

Surely our ideology helped us survive, as we carried on the mission of New Work, striving to create a sustainable community and meaningful livelihoods. We shared meals, lots of music, yoga, capoeira, community brunches and potlucks, and neighborhood association meetings.

Spring exploded into gardens, and with lots of support, we built a large garden on Field Street. It was across the street from our neighborhood matriarch, Ms. Grace Durr, and she would watch us work from her porch, let us carry buckets of water from her backyard spigot, and we would bring her whatever was ready to harvest that week—a handful of green beans, collards, broccoli. Little did we know that our beloved Ms. Durr would pass away that Fall. It makes our garden that much sweeter to know that we gave her a bit of enjoyment and nourishment and a place of connection while she was alive. Ms. Durr’s quiet and steady strength touched several generations and many lives as she provided shelter and care and conversation and love from her home of decades on Field Street.

With the heat of summer, I moved on, and prepared for the next stage of my journey: Korea. I left Field Street for the first time since I’d arrived in Detroit in February 2013, and took a respite in Corktown’s historic Spaulding Court, where I enjoyed my fabulous roommates and neighbors, the abundant community garden, our neighbor Brother Nature Farm and baby Wren, and Meiko’s Thursday night food truck parties.

Meanwhile, I had been madly preparing for the next level of Iyengar Yoga teaching, and to my joy and relief, passed in August, to the Intermediate Junior III certification. Only a week or so after the test, we learned that our beloved teacher, Shri BKS Iyengar, Guruji, had passed away, at age 95.  All over the world, several generations of Iyengar teachers and students, as well as yoga practitioners of all traditions, grieved and honored the remarkable life of this most noble soul who revolutionized the teaching of this ancient art, science and philosophy. I am so honored to have been in his gracious presence, and the grieving and celebrating continue.

At the same time, Detroit’s beloved Grace Lee Boggs began to actively decline. After a lifetime of dedication to uplifting the human struggle and articulating visionary leadership, she prepared herself to move on. The community gathered to provide unconditional love and support. Thankfully, Grace is still with us and kicking, and we savor each day with her as she inches toward her 100th birthday in June.

On September 1, after years of planning, I finally made it to Korea. (You can read all about it in other blogposts.) To summarize, I devoted myself to many hours of study daily, in a most humble effort to regain my first language. I way underestimated how much time and energy this would take; I still feel like an ignoramus as soon as the conversation becomes  the least bit sophisticated. I also visited several alternative communities doing some fascinating work which I will detail in another letter, and met lots of artists and activists. I also offered what I knew of Iyengar Yoga to a community of eager students who have not had adequate opportunities within Korea to advance their studies. We bonded and appreciated each other deeply. Finally I got to reconnect with many family members, who collectively served as surrogate parents. And so, I am ending the year in Korea.

This was an awakening year on the American clock of the world, a year in which the brutality which is and always has been America was made abundantly clear to the entire world through the much publicized police slayings of unarmed black men: Michael Brown, Eric Garner, Dontre Hamilton, to name just a few. A Korean friend, lifelong activist Eugene Soh, took one look at the footage of Ferguson protests and observed, “This is not a police force—this is the militarization of the state.” After decades of dictatorships, Koreans know from military regimes, so they know one when they see one.

Our global current reality is that as circumstances become more extreme—more unemployment, more poverty, increasing gaps between rich and poor, shrinking natural resources—those in power will feel more threatened and become more violent. These circumstances require each of us to speak out, for if we do not, we will be co-opted into complicity with the status quo.

The bleakness of our times braces us like a cold but refreshing blast of winter air. It is what it is. Our minds can trick us (“the house is not actually on fire, it’s just a spark, we can contain it…”) but our bodies speak truth, our bodies know what is real. How will we respond to this reality?

Herein lies the hope of the New Year. The only hope, let’s face it. So, dear friends, what will you manifest in 2015? How will you respond to increasing militarization of America, to the ongoing sanctioned killing of black and brown bodies? What beautiful movements of resistance, survival, and healing will you enact this year? What will you grow? What will you create? What words and gestures will you use towards what end? I eagerly await your responses.

Meanwhile, I close with the observations of the great James Baldwin, whose writings are more relevant than ever these days: 

"The poet or the revolutionary is there to articulate the necessity, but until the people themselves apprehend it, nothing can happen... Perhaps it can't be done without the poet, but it certainly can't be done without the people. The poet and the people get on generally very badly, and yet they need each other. The poet knows it sooner than the people do. The people usually know it after the poet is dead; but that's all right. The point is to get your work done, and your work is to change the world."

As we gather spiritual strength, hope, and faith in these (now shortening) winter nights,  let’s get on with the work. And may it be beautiful.

In love and struggle,

Sister Hong Gwi-Seok (Peggy Hong)

Monday, December 1, 2014

Black in Seoul: Love, Hate, and Objectification

Badass Yoga Nun hit the dance floor Saturday night. Every once in a while I need a good 2-4 hours of sweating on a dance floor to speed up my metabolic and metaphysical processes. In the wake of the Michael Brown trial in my solitary rage, I had been needing a physical outlet to vent—some pounding music and enough energy around me to support and inspire. I had not had an opportunity to dance in Korea, given the class and age segregation inherent in Confucianist Korea. Where is a 51 year-old yoga nun supposed to get her dance on? I’m told a lot of clubs not only have dress codes but also age caps—no one over 30!

Whatever….I decided to chance it at a queer-friendly party at a club in the foreigner district, Itaewon. Queer communities are more welcoming and less conservative as a rule, so I thought this might be the best setting to step out. On the other hand, I hadn’t been around White people in months and I immediately felt triggered. The armor I had been unconsciously shedding came back on, like the smoke that filled the basement bar.

Once inside, I had work to do. I stormed the dance floor like a banshee, unwilling to wait for the crowd to get drunk enough to dance. I was out there alone seemingly forever, old and unashamed, but eventually a few folks stepped up and sort of bounced mildly with drinks and cigarettes in hand.

Things got exciting when a spontaneous cipher began with a few gay Brown men voguing and a sister who joined them. Spectators whipped out their cameras and filmed the scene. I love ciphers for their unpredictability and the spirit of participatory democracy, but this one disturbed me after a while, because no one else was joining. It turned out to be a performance rather than a community dance-in. a racially charged exhibitionist/voyeur event.

In the wake of Michael Brown’s trial, a friend posted on Facebook, “If only white people loved Black people as much as they love Black culture.” To be Black in Korea is tough. In addition to a tradition of colorism and homogeneity among Koreans, there is an idolatry of White culture borne of an unhealthy relationship with the USA after more than a half century of occupation, and to Koreans, to be American means to be White. It seems Koreans have internalized some of the worst parts of White culture, based on mainstream media and a conservative military. And that equals both a fascination and a fear of Blackness.

Yet Black culture is highly sought out. African American hip-hop fills the airwaves here like it does all over the world, and I’ve connected with the African drumming and dance communities, as well as the Capoeira Angola community in Seoul. I’ve met artists from Burkina Faso, able to make a living here, performing and teaching, and hanging out with their Korean girlfriends. It all feels a little Josephine Baker-ish, and the long tradition of Black artists from Nina Simone to James Baldwin who left their homes to live where they could financially support themselves and live in a less overtly hostile environment.

On one hand, I love the universality of art and how it brings people together. On the other hand, I abhor exotification and cultural appropriation. This tension manifested on the dance floor, as the White and Asian crowd surrounded the Black dancers. Itaewon is also filled with Korean women in their microskirts hanging out with their White boyfriends. The interracial mingling goes beyond this trope, but this particular dynamic concerns me the most, because of the dominance of global whiteness and the fraught history of the USA in Korea. The walls of the Itaewon club flickered with videos of Black bodies—the less clothing the better, the air throbbed with Black voices, and now a cipher surrounding Black dancers.

Meanwhile, Michael Brown. And so many others whose names we may or may not learn, Brown and Black folks, victimized by systemic White supremacy.

What does it mean to love Black people, especially Black youth, especially Black male youth, and treasure them the way White culture treasures White youth? For those who claim to love Black people (“my best friend/boy or girl friend is ___”), how can you tell when you lapse into objectification, appropriation, and exotification of Black folks?

In America, we are Black or we are White. The extreme violence that surrounds us forces us to choose: we cannot be in-between. Society chooses for us, actually, and because Asians have been slaughtered in hate crimes just as African Americans have been, we are also Black. Think of Vincent Chin, Chai Vang, and just this month, Sao Lue Vang,

And yet, in Itaewon, are Koreans more White than Black? How does this manifest in how Koreans treat Blacks? How does this show up in how Koreans treat other Asians—the recent immigrants from Southeast Asia, their browner neighbors from sunnier countries?

May we Yellow and Brown folks embrace Blackness as a political, social, and cultural stance of solidarity. May we not idolize, idealize, exoticize, objectify, or exploit other people of color. May we love all our children and protect them from harm. May we link arms and stand together with fierce compassion. May we dance together on the sticky concrete dance floor in a basement bar in Seoul. May we shift the gaze from voyeur to participant. May we all take on the vulnerability and power of Michael Brown together.